I've never really had dreams. Sure, as a kid I thought I was going to be a great comic book artist but those dreams faded soon enough. Since then I became like Peter in Office Space. What do I want to do when I grow up? Never had an answer. In college I arbitrarily picked a major related to computers. Out of a sheer lack of any other kind of external validation, I gave it my all and got a 4.0 even though I mostly hated the whole experience. Had an internship and hated it. The internship led to a job right out of college and I've been there since the start of this year, about eight months ago.
It's been the most miserable period of my life. I constantly feel like I'm not doing well enough I'm too far away from home. I never feel like I'm really contributing. On top of all of this, I just flat-out don't care about this field at all.
This show spoke to me right where I was, dead on. Aoi Miyamori knows she wants to make anime but doesn't know what she wants to do more specifically than that. The girl who's into 3D animation loves it but gets sick of working at a big company that does nothing but animate cars. The girl who's an artist wants to do it but fears that initial failures will preclude future advancement.
I love the director character. He's passionate about what he does but has fallen from glory after a big failure and often doesn't know precisely what he wants the shows to be. But as they talk things through he re-discovers what he wants for the show and perseveres through the doubt and despair.
I love so many little things about the show. I love how, whenever they're getting into the work, their characters materialize beside them as if their dreams are becoming real. I love Aoi's good angel, bad angel toys that give voice to her inner turmoil.
As I write it's Sunday. Tomorrow I go back to my job. Watching this show...might just make it difficult for me to go back to work. Or maybe not. Maybe this show gives me hope that even if you're struggling now you can persevere and figure things out as you go. I identify a lot with Aoi, but there's a difference. I don't even know what I want to get involved in at all.
Shirobako about the relationship between dreams and reality. It's about continual re-discovery of what you really want. It's about sticking with it because you never know how what you're doing will aid you in the future. It's about figuring things out as you go. It's a great show if you're interested in the production of animation, but the story is applicable to anyone's search for "your thing."
This show deserves a long, analytical piece breaking it down in detail but for now all I can do is vent my epic mixture of sadness but also joy that art like this show is made and can speak to people like me.
I didn't cry...Because I held the tears back.
I've never really had dreams. Sure, as a kid I thought I was going to be a great comic book artist but those dreams faded soon enough. Since then I became like Peter in Office Space. What do I want to do when I grow up? Never had an answer. In college I arbitrarily picked a major related to computers. Out of a sheer lack of any other kind of external validation, I gave it my all and got a 4.0 even though I mostly hated the whole experience. Had an internship and hated it. The internship led to a job right out of college and I've been there since the start of this year, about eight months ago.
It's been the most miserable period of my life. I constantly feel like I'm not doing well enough I'm too far away from home. I never feel like I'm really contributing. On top of all of this, I just flat-out don't care about this field at all.
This show spoke to me right where I was, dead on. Aoi Miyamori knows she wants to make anime but doesn't know what she wants to do more specifically than that. The girl who's into 3D animation loves it but gets sick of working at a big company that does nothing but animate cars. The girl who's an artist wants to do it but fears that initial failures will preclude future advancement.
I love the director character. He's passionate about what he does but has fallen from glory after a big failure and often doesn't know precisely what he wants the shows to be. But as they talk things through he re-discovers what he wants for the show and perseveres through the doubt and despair.
I love so many little things about the show. I love how, whenever they're getting into the work, their characters materialize beside them as if their dreams are becoming real. I love Aoi's good angel, bad angel toys that give voice to her inner turmoil.
As I write it's Sunday. Tomorrow I go back to my job. Watching this show...might just make it difficult for me to go back to work. Or maybe not. Maybe this show gives me hope that even if you're struggling now you can persevere and figure things out as you go. I identify a lot with Aoi, but there's a difference. I don't even know what I want to get involved in at all.
Shirobako about the relationship between dreams and reality. It's about continual re-discovery of what you really want. It's about sticking with it because you never know how what you're doing will aid you in the future. It's about figuring things out as you go. It's a great show if you're interested in the production of animation, but the story is applicable to anyone's search for "your thing."
This show deserves a long, analytical piece breaking it down in detail but for now all I can do is vent my epic mixture of sadness but also joy that art like this show is made and can speak to people like me.