History Recap / StevenUniverseFutureS1E19IAmMyMonster

The episode begins with Bismuth and Peridot cleaning up the damage in Little Homeworld from "Everything's Fine" when they begin to feel the ground shake. Everyone turns and notices a giant pink monster looming over them and roaring. Noticing that it is on the beach, Bismuth, Lapis, and Peridot warp over to the Beach House and announce that reinforcements have arrived but are confused when they see the entire front wall demolished.

* ApologeticAttacker: Peridot apologizes to Stevenzilla after she and Bismuth hit him. Lapis also apologizes when she throws a wave in his face, stopping him long enough for everyone to give him a CooldownHug.

* BehemothBattle: Stevenzilla gets to fight with Alexandrite and the Cluster. The former is [[CurbStompBattle defeated almost immediately]], the latter manages to restrain him long enough for Connie to give a RousingSpeech and Garnet to hatch a plan how to stop Steven's rampage. Also {{defied}} by Garnet, who, after getting turned into a GiantWoman by Yellow Diamond, instead of fighting Steven, gives him a CooldownHug.

** The Diamonds and Spinel arrive [[WesternAnimation/StevenUniverseTheMovie at both the best and worst possible moment]], with White again asking, "is this a bad time?" [[LampshadeHanging Even White lampshades it]] when she and the others see Stevenzilla upon leaving their ship.

** When Pearl hugs Stevenzilla, she tells him that she understands his situation, in that he kept a part of [him]self secret". She did the same with the truth about Pink Diamond, as seen in [[Recap/StevenUniverseS5E18ASinglePaleRose "A Single Pale Rose"]].

* CoolDownHug: Stevenzilla is cured by the Crystal Gems, the Diamonds, and Spinel all giving him one of these. Even the Cluster gets in on it by gently holding his hand. It really kicks in when [[TheBigDamnKiss Connie gives him a kiss.]]

* FormulaBreakingEpisode: The whole conflict against Stevenzilla is one of the few moments in the entire series where we don't see things through Steven's perspective.

** When White is knocked back by Stevenzilla's emotions, Yellow grabs hold onto one of her hands as she and Blue catch her.

* IKnowYoureInThereSomewhereFight: Everyone has to go against the Corrupted Steven in his emotional state.

* {{Kaiju}}: Corrupted Steven is this, being the size of the mountain the Temple is built into. His overall appearance even calls Franchise/{{Godzilla}} to mind.
* KarmaHoudiniWarranty: Steven in his normal form forgave the Diamonds and Spinel for traumatizing him. In turn, they tried to indulge him without understanding what he needed. They're forced to see the consequences of their actions when Steven lashes out at them. What's more, the Diamonds and Spinel apologize to Steven as they hug him.

* LampshadeHanging: When the Diamonds and Spinel see Stevenzilla, White lampshades that it seems like every time they come visit, something like this is happening.
* MegaMalestrom: Lapis creates one in order to contain Steven. It doesn't last...
* TheMindIsAPlaythingOfTheBody: White attempts to let Steven into her head after his corruption to help heal him, only to be thrown back out. When Yellow and Blue ask what happened, White's reaction is to shout "That's ''not'' Steven anymore!"

* OneWingedAngel: Steven's emotional issues finally erupt, causing him to corrupt ''himself'' and turn into a mountain-sized, rampaging monster resembling Godzilla.

* PokeInTheThirdEye: When White Diamond tries using her WillingChanneler power on Steven, her eyes shoot pink before she collapses.

* TakeOurWordForIt: It's never revealed what White Diamond saw while using her powers on Steven, but whatever she saw, it was horrific enough to convince her that that wasn't him anymore.

* TheWorfEffect: Alexandrite, the Diamonds, and even the ''Cluster'' are unable to stop Stevenzilla. The only way they're able to cure him is with a CoolDownHug.
* YouAreNotAlone: The core of this episode. During the CoolDownHug, everyone comforts Stevenzilla and assures him they still love him and they won't abandon him, even after seeing his "not so nice" side of himself. Their words of unconditional love finally reach him and he turns back to normal.

* NakedOnRevival: Because his clothing was destroyed after transformation, Steven awakens covered in a blanket.

* CryCute: When Sapphire points out that Steven might end up stuck in his monster form permanently, the others--mainly the former main antagonists--cry for not helping Steven earlier. As does Steven himself after being restored.

* EverybodyCries: The Crystal Gems, Spinel, and the Diamonds all start crying TearsOfRemorse about how it's all their fault for Steven's suffering.

* AdultFear: Finding out that you may be part of the reasons why your loved one is suffering, whether physically, emotionally and/or mentally is a dreadful one. In this episode, everyone (sans Connie) is forced to own up to the fact they did hurt Steven in a way, whether intentionally or not, directly or not, which is part of the reasons why he ended up corrupted. The results, at least at first, are not pretty at all.

* SomethingCompletelyDifferent: The whole conflict against Stevenzilla is one of the few moments in the entire series where we don't see things through Steven's perspective.

--->'''White Diamond:''' ''Why is something like this always happening when we show up for a visit?''

-->'''White Diamond:''' ''Why is something like this always happening when we show up for a visit?''

-->'''White Diamond''': That's not Steven anymore!

* TheBigDamnKiss: The final key to Steven uncorrupting is Connie giving him a soft kiss.

** The Diamonds and Spinel arrive [[WesternAnimation/StevenUniverseTheMovie at both the best and worst possible moment]], with White again asking, "is this a bad time?"

* CoolDownHug: Stevenzilla is cured by the Crystal Gems, The Diamonds, and Spinel all giving him one of these. Even the Cluster gets in on it by gently holding his hand. It really kicks in when Connie gives him a kiss.

* CryCute: When Sapphire points out that Steven might end up stuck in his monster form permanently, the others--mainly the ones that used to be villainous--cry for not helping Steven earlier. As does Steven himself after being restored.

* NowItsMyTurn: After saving the universe, after putting everyone else's needs over his own, after loving everyone else without asking for anything in return for so long, everyone, EVERYONE finally comes back to save Steven.

** Steven is blatantly trying not to discuss his real emotional problems with his family, owing to a sense of not wanting them to worry. When the truth comes out anyway, Steven reveals that he's been carrying a lot on his conscience, considering himself a failure and a monster. White Diamond notes that she can't reach Steven, and when Steven manages to turn back to normal, he starts crying BrokenTears.

** When Pearl hugs Stevenzilla, she tells him that she understands his situation, in that he kept a part of [him]self secret". She did the same with the truth about Pink Diamond, as seen in "[[Recap/StevenUniverseS5E18ASinglePaleRose A Single Pale Rose]]".

* You'ReNotAlone: The core of this episode. During the CoolDownHug, everyone comforts Stevenzilla and assures him they still love him and they won't abandon him, even after seeing his "not so nice" side of himself. Their words of unconditional love finally reach him and he turns back to normal.

* YouReNotAlone: The core of this episode. During the CoolDownHug, everyone comforts Stevenzilla and assures him they still love him and they won't abandon him, even after seeing his "not so nice" side of himself. Their words of unconditional love finally reach him and he turns back to normal.

-->'''Connie'''

As they walk outside, they see Connie, Greg, and the Crystal Gems trying to reach out to the monster. Joining their friends, Peridot announces that they are ready to fight, but Garnet declines this, confusing them. Lapis notices that Steven isn't there, and Garnet says to them, "That is Steven.", to their horror. Steven bashes his head against the cliff of the temple, causing a small rockslide. As the group runs out of the way, Amethyst explains that they can't get him to listen, while Pearl is confused about what has happened to him. As Connie questions if they can change him back to normal, Garnet claims that as long as Steven thinks he's a monster, he will stay one.

* AdultFear: Finding out that you may be part of the reasons why your loved one is suffering, whether physically, emotionally and/or mentally is a dreadful one. In this episode, everyone (sans Connie) is forced to own up to the fact they did hurt Steven in a way, whether it was intentional or not, directly or not, which is part of the reasons why he ended up corrupted. The results, at least at first, are not pretty at all.

* AdultFear: Finding out that you may be part of the reasons why your loved one is suffering, whether physically, emotionally and/or mentally is a dreadful one. In this episode, everyone (sans Connie) are forced to own up to the fact they did hurt Steven in a way, whether it was intentional or not, directly or not, which is part of the reasons why he ended up corrupted. The results, at least at first, are not pretty at all.