History Recap / StevenUniverseFutureS1E19IAmMyMonster

* AdultFear: Finding out that you may be part of the reasons why your loved one is suffering, whether physically, emotionally or mentally is a dreadful one. In this episode, everyone (sans Connie) are forced to own up to the fact they did hurt Steven in a way, whether it was intentional or not, directly or not, which is part of the reasons why he ended up corrupted. The results, at least at first, are not pretty at all.

* AdultFear: Finding out that you may be part of the reasons why your loved one is suffering, whether physically, emotionally or mentally is a dreadful one. In this episode, everyone (sans Connie) are forced to own up to the fact they did hurt Steven in a way, whether it was intentional or not, directly or not, and the results, at least at first, are not pretty at all.

As the scene fades to white, Steven has fully returned back to normal. He wakes up, covered in a sheet, to find all of his friends and family standing over him, everybody standing on the Cluster's open hand and happy to have him back to normal. Steven starts to remorsefully tear up over the trouble he has caused at first, but then Lion licks him in comfort. This causes Steven to feel a little better, and he finally lets out his emotions, sobbing as he clings to Lion.

* CueTheSun: The sun emerges from the clouds during Connie's RousingSpeech.

The episode begins with Bismuth and Peridot cleaning up the damage in Little Homeworld from "Everything's Fine", when they begin to feel the ground shake. Everyone turns and noticed a Giant Pink Kaiju looming over them and roaring. Noticing that it was on the beach, Bismuth, Lapis, and Peridot warp over to the Beach House and announce that reinforcements have arrived, but are confused when they see the entire front wall demolished.

As they walk outside, they see Connie, Greg, and the Crystal Gems trying to reach out to the monster. Joining their friends, Peridot announces that they are ready to fight, but Garnet declines this, confusing them. Lapis notices that Steven isn't there, and Garnet says "That is Steven!", scaring them. Steven bashes his head against the cliff of the temple, causing an avalanche of boulders to fall. As the group runs out of the way, Amethyst notes that they can't get him to listen, while Pearl is confused on what's happening to him, first Steven claiming he is a shatterer and now this. As Connie questions if they can change him back to normal, Garnet claims that as long as Steven thinks he's a monster, he will stay one.

Steven begins to move towards Beach City, with Bismuth noting that they have to keep him away from there. Garnet tells Connie to try and keep the citizens safe, telling Bismuth, Lapis, and Peridot to try and lure him to sea, and fuses with Pearl and Amethyst, forming Alexandrite.

As Steven tries to climb over the lighthouse and towards Beach City, Alexandrite jumps on him and covers his eyes. Steven begins to move and squirm around, bashing Alexandrite between him and the hill, forcing her to unfuse. Thanks to Bismuth's armour, Peridot uses her powers to move herself and Bismuth through the air and hit Steven, getting his attention; Peridot immediately apologizes and Steven jumps out to the ocean to attack them. With him being right where they wanted him, Lapis forms a whirlpool and launches some water chains wrapped around Steven, keeping him from moving any further.

Lapis informs the team that she can't hold him for long, with Amethyst questioning what to do next, Pearl saying that they can't leave him as a giant Kaiju, and Garnet stating that they must reach him and bring him out. Amethyst ironically asks them who would be good at doing so. When everyone asks who, she yells "Steven!". They then see the Diamond Ship landing beside them, while the Diamonds and Spinel ask if this was a bad time. Spinel exits the ship with Steven's flip-flop in hand, saying he forgot this, and is blown away at seeing Steven as a Kaiju. As the Diamonds follow her, White states that something bad is always happening whenever they visit Earth once seeing Steven as well. When Blue Diamond asks what this was, Garnet informs them that the monster is Steven, shocking them.

Yellow uses her powers to try and revert Steven's physical form to his normal self, but this proves to be ineffective. Blue uses her clouds of joy in an attempt for him to feel better, but Steven forces the cloud directly towards Yellow and Spinel, causing them to burst out laughing in regards for Blue's failed attempt at curing Steven. Then, White insists that she can help Steven and understand what he's going through, if she can connect with him. Using her power to try and get through to Steven, he proves to be far too poweful for her to control, causing her to lose control with him and collapse, causing her to exclaim that the monster is no longer Steven. Lapis struggles even more with restraining Steven, and as his eyes and spikes glow, he lets out a furious roar that pushes everyone back. This powerful impact has caused Garnet to unfuse as well.

As Steven walks towards them, Gems from the Cluster emerge, preventing him from coming closer to everyone else. Pearl says that despite the "monster" he is, Steven is still in there, and must be feeling very angry at himself and everything that's happened around him. Amethyst regrets that she wasn't there to help Steven when he needed it, whereas Ruby and Sapphire cry over the thought of him staying a monster if they can't get through to him. Greg refuses to leave, as he claims despite this being a Gem-centered problem, Steven is his still his son, and feels that he neglected him by not protecting him from all the trauma he experienced. Spinel and the Diamonds all burst out in tears of being the cause of Steven's inability to deal with his problems, having White arguing with Spinel about taking the bigger blame of Steven's mental breakdown.

Out of nowhere, Connie replies that while it is their fault, grieving and self-blame will not solve the problem. She points out that Steven has always put everyone's feelings before his own, and that they've had him around when they needed him, and Connie says that this time, he needs them. This motivates Ruby and Sapphire to fuse as Garnet once again, who devises a plan to get Steven back to normal. Steven overcomes the Cluster, sending it back into the Earth's core.

As he runs towards them, Garnet sets her plan into action by having Yellow making her the same size as him, Blue lifting up everyone, and rushing towards Steven. Garnet leaps towards Steven, giving him a hug as he struggles to escape her arms, and he finally comes to a stop. Everyone hugs him, and tells their feelings towards him about all that he's done for them. Even the Cluster grabs his hand, showing that they care for him too. Connie comes up to him last, stating that she understands everything he went through, and reassures that everyone will always be with him, as he was always there for them. She kisses him in an attempt to revert him back to normal, as the scene cuts to black, with pink droplet appearing. The scene then cuts to shows pink drops hitting the ocean, as Steven starts to cry from everyone's touching words and unconditional love for him. His tears start to glow, and then the rest of him as he starts to transform back.

As the scene fades to white, Steven has fully returned back to normal (but is covered by a sheet due to his clothes being destroyed in the process of his transformation). He wakes up to find all of his friends and family standing over him, happy to have him back to normal. Steven starts to remorsefully tear up over the trouble he has caused at first, but then Lion licks him in comfort. This causes Steven to feel a little better, and he finally lets out his emotions and bursts out crying while hugging his beloved guardian pet, thus ending the episode.

* NotHyperbole: White's breakdown about being responsible for everything and hurting "everyone in the universe" would be over the top dramatics... if it wasn't literally true.

-->'''White Diamond''': ''This is all my fault!''\\
'''Connie''': ''YES! It IS!''

* ApologeticAttacker: Peridot apologizes to Monster Steven after she and Bismuth hit him. Lapis also apologizes when she throws a wave in his face, stopping him long enough for everyone to give him a CooldownHug.

* CoolDownHug: Corrupted Steven is cured by the Crystal Gems, The Diamonds, and Spinel all giving him one of these. Even the Cluster gets in on it by gently holding his hand.

* BackForTheFinale: After being absent throughout the movie and ''Future'', with only a mention by Yellow Diamond about potentially restoring the individual Gems that compose it in "Homeworld Bound", the Cluster reappears to help deal with {{Kaiju}} Steven.
* BehemothBattle: {{Kaiju}} Steven gets to fight with Alexandrite and the Cluster. The former is [[CurbStompBattle defeated almost immediately]], the latter manages to restrain him long enough for Connie to give a RousingSpeech and Garnet to hatch a plan how to stop Steven's rampage. Also {{defied}} by Garnet, who, after getting turned into a GiantWoman by Yellow Diamond, instead of fighting Steven, gives him a CooldownHug.

** When Pearl hugs the {{Kaiju}} Steven, she tells him that she understands his situation, in that he kept a part of [him]self secret". She did the same with the truth about Pink Diamond, as seen in "[[Recap/StevenUniverseS5E18ASinglePaleRose A Single Pale Rose]]".

** When White is knocked back by Kaiju Steven's emotions, Yellow grabs hold onto one of her hands as she and Blue catch her.

* LampshadeHanging: When the Diamonds and Spinel see {{Kaiju}} Steven, White lampshades that it seems like every time they come visit, something like this is happening.

* OneWingedAngel: Steven's emotional issues finally erupt, causing him to corrupt ''himself'' and turn into a mountain-sized, rampaging monster.

* SomethingCompletelyDifferent: The whole conflict against Monster Steven is one of the few moments in the entire series where we don't see things through Steven's perspective.

* TheWorfEffect: Alexandrite, the Diamonds, and even the ''Cluster'' are unable to stop Corrupted Steven. The only way they're able to cure him is with a CoolDownHug.

* BehemothBattle: {{Kaiju}} Steven gets to fight with Alexandrite and the Cluster. The former is [[CurbStompBattle defeated almost immediately]], the latter manages to restrain him long enough for Connie to give a RousingSpeech and Garnet to hatch a plan how to stop Steven's rampage.

-->'''White Diamond''': ''This is all my fault!''
-->'''Connie''': ''YES! It IS!''

* CallBack: The Diamonds and Spinel arrive [[WesternAnimation/StevenUniverseTheMovie at both the best and worst possible moment]], with White again asking, "is this a bad time?"

-->'''Connie''': ''YES! It IS your fault!''

* HoldingHands: This Cluster helps Steven during the [[GroupHug Group]] CoolDownHug by gently holding his hand.

* Hourglass Plot: Since the beginning of the series, Steven was the one who helped everyone during their moment of crisis and helped them to change their ways for the better. This time, everyone returns the favor by saving Steven from his corrupted form.

* Now It's My Turn: After saving the universe, after putting everyone else's needs over his own, after loving everyone else without asking for anything in return for so long, everyone, EVERYONE finally comes back to save Steven.

* NotHyperbole: White's breakdown about being responsible for everything and hurting 'everyone in the universe' would be over the top dramatics... if it wasn't literally true.

* FailedASpotCheck: The Diamonds and Spinel apparently didn't see the giant monster the Crystal Gems are fighting as they landed their ships on the beach, since they only reacted to it upon leaving their ship.

* FailedASpotCheck: The Diamonds and Spinel apparently didn't see the giant monster the Crystal Gems we’re fighting as they landed their ships on the beach, since they only reacted to it upon leaving their ship.