Looking for an old TV tropes article about a weird dark fantasy premise full of mind bending nightmare fuel

I will admit up front I'm not sure if this is the right place to ask this question but I wanted some help finding a particular TV tropes page I remembered reading back in 2014 that touched on a particular... literature I think? It was such a weird, confusing, dark and messed up story, one which I came across one night during a very long and twisty wikiwalk on TV tropes by pure accident back in 2014 that it became something of bile fascination to me and I told two of my friends about it but for the life of me I wasn't able to the find the TV trope article about the story in question again afterwards and one of my friends is half convinced it was a story I "dreamed up while asleep" despite the fact I was very much wide awake when I read the TV tropes article when I happened upon it during the aforementioned wiki walk.

I admit that I sadly don't remember the name of the series or the author nor the name of the protagonist of the series but I do (mostly) remember the premise very vividly. The premise from what I recall features a protagonist who died and wind ups with amnesia in a dark afterlife where he only his name and the memory he had of this Jewish girl and he sets off on a quest to find his memories and find the Jewish girl.

But one of the things that becomes apparent about the afterlife of the setting is that; it is an afterlife where those who were good in life become ugly and are faced with an afterlife of suffering, misery and squalor, while those who were evil in life in the afterlife become beautiful and live a relatively better afterlife that not only is more cushy in this hell-scape but have much more social status and power. The setting of the afterlife is a messed up one where things that would have been good undergo untold horror and are jeered and punished while evil is not only the norm but virtue. There is even this weird and gross bit out of nowhere where in the setting any fetus that was aborted in life or miscarried end up in the afterlife as some kind of ugly never-borne creatures... for some inexplicable reason??

A bit of foreshadowing for the Protagonist is that while on his quest for his memories and finding the Jewish girl, who is the only thing, much less the only person; he remember; he was walking the true neutral alignment for most of his time of the afterlife... but given he was in this afterlife and looked very handsome than what he looked like in life; hints at the fact he was likely a bad person in life before arriving in the nightmare fuel afterlife at least to some degree.

After several adventures through this hell-scape the protagonisteventually ends up finding the Jewish girl, but finds that she is some kind of lamina-type creature who I *think* was enslaved by someone else and the protagonist goes on another quest to both free her and than help her "move on" from the horrible nightmare fuel afterlife. After of which point he does so he finally gets his memories back... and it's revealed (and this was a big narrative reveal) that he was actually a Nazi during WW 2 and I think not only that; but worked at one of the death camps where he crossed paths with the Jewish girl I think? And after he gets these memories of his identity back and after helping the Jewish girl move on from the nightmare fuel afterlife; he gleefully jumps off the morality cliff and becomes a pure evil bastard.

It is one of the weirdest and messed up dark fantasy stories I have ever heard of and to this day after telling my one friend about it he is still unsure wither I actually saw the TV tropes article. It's hard to remember the name or the author of the story or the name of the protagonist but I want to cite it just so my friend knows that this isn't something I dreamed up in a weird nightmare in my sleep. I know it may be of dubious help to only cite the premise of the story without a story title or author or even protagonist name to go off of but I hope the premise might help ring someones bell and they might be able to recall the name and author and provide a link to the TV tropes article for the weird, nightmare fuel story and it's TV tropes article so I can can confirm it's existence to my freinds so they know it wasn't something I dreamed up in the bed one night; given I was wide awake at my laptop when I first stumbled on it.

So yeah; if this whole plot premise rings any bells in anyway; could someone let me know the title and author and point me to the TV tropes page of it? I need a citation of the story desperately.

Edited by bucue4 on Sep 14th 2023 at 8:11:50 AM

The place for your question is You Know That Show.

Thanks for the heads up; I'll take my question there than