Venting

I wish I could start a message board and knew how to manage it. Every title of every thread would be straight forward. Instead of simply “Art” and “Help and Support”, they’d be titled “Post Fan Art Here”, “Copyright and Legal Discussion Here”, “Self-Promote Here”, etc.

As blunt and plain, no bells or whistles, franker than Frankenstein.

I'd love to start up a collaborative writing project, like those "write the timeline for a fantasy world" games that were popular a few years ago, but I don't have such good luck with proposing games. The last time I tried starting one, I basically got told to "go away." Out of 3, one got no interest, one took off and ended before the conclusion, and one had a single post telling the player character to "go to sleep." So why bother? It's either going to get ignored or someone's going to spit on it.

I wish that any of the things I've done for the past 4 years had amounted to anything instead of getting dismissed or ignored.

Apparently, I'm in an important enough position where I'm the one expected to take all the crap from dissatisfied customers so the rest don't have to, but I'm not in an important enough position to actually be worth listening to. Some of the issues is stuff I've pointed out for years. But did anybody ever listen? No, of course not.

I wish I could say it's the first time it's happened, but it seems to be a bit of a constant for me. It just in general feels like people think that what I think, feel or know just isn't as important as everyone else. Which obviously means that the problem lies with me, doesn't it? But how am I supposed to improve myself if nobody tells me what I'm doing wrong? I'm not a mindreader, you know.

I'm also a bit afraid to talk about it, because what if my perception of things is wrong? It doesn't lessen these feelings, and I'm not expecting anybody to read my mind and know how I feel, either. But I'm afraid that I'll come across as unreasonable.