emotional support (someone to talk to)

hi, this is a forum for emotional support and just someone to talk to if your not ok

admins i beg you, please don't delete this forum

Well, I just had an awful day, woke up feeling ill, went to school anyways and had a test which did not go so well, ate a fishbone which still seems like it's in my throat and I have an English exam this weekend. Sigh...

maybe take a day off, a you day

justtttttttttttt paranoia for me :)))))))))))))

I think this thread is a good idea. I haven't been feeling too well lately, and I'd definitely appreciate having someone to talk to.

For example, I've been really lonely. Other than my girlfriend, I only have one (meatspace) friend. I could use more friends. I keep seeing True Companions in the media and it makes me long for friendships like that.

impatient as always. i feel like i offended somebody today.

edited 9th Mar '17 11:22:43 AM by ewolf2015

@ewolf2015 What happened?

@ Kara Oris that old thing was over but I do have another problem. I've realized that tropers are people. yeah surprising, right? and as people, they have a choice as to whether or not they should answer something. the problem is...well, I have two characters that I want people to look and critique on. I've been waiting for a long time with no reply. they use to be active a while back but when I post on them...bam...it's dead for days until someone just decides to post a character without giving a damn.

I know that just like this thread, no one would respond so what do I care. I might as well leave the web for 5 years and see if it's not dead yet....sigh...sorry. I really hate to sound like some brat who wants attention but I generally need help with my writing. I quite frankly suck in my opinion. I just don't think I'm good enough pulling off a story without someone saying my grammar sucks, I tell too much or I wrote something offensive.

edited 12th Mar '17 6:58:35 PM by ewolf2015

There is a thread like this somewhere in one of the general talk areas.

I've just been an absolute wreck. I talked a bit about it in the Christian troper forum to ask for prayers, but, as usual, God's just letting me deal with the way he made me, borked brain and all - because, when it comes down to it, I don't think that any gods that may exist are particularly interested in our happiness. My anxiety issues are coming up again. I actually think I've been on a manic swing (and not the happy kind). I'm bipolar and one thing that a lot of people don't know about the manic part of the disorder is that it doesn't always manifest as happiness or euphoria - at least with me, it sometimes manifests as extreme anger or anxiety or all of that rolled together. I've been having the "Hell" version of late. I did power through a massive personal creative project - that bit of good always seems to come out of these states, but the bad part of is literally EVERYTHING ELSE about the state. It happens often that mania is worse than depression for me, regarding my cycles.

I'm getting into the thought-state I am often in whereby I just think, by nature, people like me were never meant to live very long. I'm 37 and I feel like I've lived too long. I'm not suicidal right now because I just don't feel like doing the deed myself. I nearly died last year / last spring and that somehow triggered a weird survival instinct in me. I also do not want to hurt people in my life that way. I know someone who lost a loved one to suicide and don't want to put her through that Hell again. I just... am kind of thinking that "we're all in pain on some level" and "Life is a continuum of suffering" and just wanting the pain to magically / unexpectedly end. I wish I could be free of the fear and anxiety I have - that I'd toughen up and my brain would "go normal." I wish I thought I had a future. I feel trapped in life.

What's worse is that I go online and to the people in my realspace life often - and I feel like I just exhaust everyone.

edited 15th Mar '17 11:06:02 AM by Shadsie

i don't know what input to give since either way might not work. but i will suggest this, try looking into yourself and see why you feel this way. this way, maybe you might find the solution to your problem.

for me, i have crippling fear as of late. a long time ago, i accidentally purchased a ebook on a vpn server. as a result, my account was locked out. after trial and error, it seemed like my account won't be coming back so i made a new one. but now dad told never to use amazon again. the problem is that there's a product that i want them to buy but i can't spit it out. if it has little to nothing to do with school it's usually seen as worthless but i really need it. i intend on doing a web comic but i tried doing that on other programs. but, i wasn't happy and tried the free trial of clip paint studio and loved it. i wanted to buy it on Christmas but coupled with my wacom intuos, it would have been too much.

now I'm left with trying to put notes on the fringe to get them to notice but to no anvil. this use to work but nowadays they don't give shit and to give context, my parents think drawing is a waste of time. but i don't. heck, i can even argue you can get more money as a freelance artist then you would just being doctor. doesn't mean it's less stressful, however.